Love Rain

All my recent posts had been pictures . I think it's about time for me to write again. 

How's your holidays so far??

I don't really care. so I'm gonna proceed with telling you guys how did my first week go. 

OKAY?!

Was hooked up with Jang Geun Suk's new drama. Love rain <3

I'm not a fan of Jang Geun Suk but somehow all of his dramas are very nice. 

Lucky?hmmm. Maybe. 

I give it a 6/10

I'm looking forward to Gong Yoo's New drama : BIG. 

The name of the drama is BIG. 

But sadly, I can't watch the drama til after SPM. which is in November. -.-

Sighhhh. 

This year is so not my year. 

Other than Love rain I too managed to finish 3 story books

I give this 8/10

This 8/10 too. 

7/10

I recommend you guys to read all those 3 books. I finished them in couple of days cause when I started reading them I just couldn't wait to know what's on the next page. 

AND I guess the highlight of my first week of holidays is that I managed to see my long lost friends 

Well they're not exactly long lost friends. But I haven't seem them for......2 months??

YES 2 months is a long time for me. 

I only get to see my friends when the twins come back from RMC or nadia comes back from KTJ. Besides that , NADA!

Sighh.

Speaking of nadia, She's coming back next week. !! I haven't seen her in ages. She's leaving for US soon to further her studies. 

So We're gonna have an adventure together. Looking forward to that. 

Have you guys met Kyungsoo? also known as D.O from EXO-K.

Isn't he the cutest thing ever?

Fine. Second cutest thing ever? 

He totally pushed down Kim Soo Hyun and Choi Minho on my top 10 hottest korean guys. 

He's right after Cho Kyuhyun which is a huge thing. 

K. I'm done fangirling. 

till then

I love them so.

Bandung 2012 : )

Don't Walk Away

Mid terms are over. 

ABOUT TIME!. 

those 3 weeks of exams had been awful. 

I have pimples all over my face. 

Fine.Maybe not all over. But there's 2 . actually, I think one of them is a mosquito bite. -.-

And how am I spending my first night after exams?

Well, with Joe Brooks of course. <3 

I finally updated my iPod. 

I had to. cause apparently they won't sync my songs unless I update it. 

SO I DID. 

Before I updated, I went through the whole backing up your iPod process. 

IT WAS TORTURE. 

I had to wait for an hour. 

Then after an hour of waiting . 

They tell me that my computer doesn't have enough space . 

SO i deleted like tons of stuff from my computer. 

Then I went to the whole process again. 

After that I updated my iPod.

and GUESS WHAT?!

all of my songs. GONE!. 

600+ songs. and 50++ videos. GONE!

sighhh. 

Luckily I had 300 songs and 26 videos in my iTunes already. 

BUT STILL!

HALF gone. GONE I SAY!. 

I actually wanted to update my ipod with new songs. But I caught up watching Joe Brooks' videos on youtube. SUCH A LOVELY GUY HE IS. 

I regretted not going for his showcase in Kuala Lumpur. 

Seriously, I should have taken the risk and sneak out that night. 

But I just had to be the good daughter and keep my promise of not going to anymore concerts til after SPM. 

My parents are very lucky to have me as their child. 

HEHE.

I'm going read a book now. 

Currently reading Broken Soup by Jenny Valentine. 

Till then . <3

Insecurities,Unworthy,Never Good Enough

Fat.Thin.Slim.Curves.

Words to describe a woman's body.

Description that can change a woman's life in a blink of an eye.

Many girls out there who are very insecure of their body. 

Am I too fat?

Am I too flat?

Why am I talking about this kind of stuff so sudden?

I just finished watching Demi Lovato : Stay Strong.

Not a fan of her. But I don't exactly hate her. 

There was nothing on tv. 

Practically it was about her going through difficult things in life. 

Eating disorder.Bipolar. and such.

She always had this problem where she thinks she's not good enough. she's too fat. Her tummy is not flat enough. 

She had this since she was 7 years old. 

and  I think that's sad. Living your life with all this petty worries

But you can't scold her for worrying about these kind of things. 

Different people have different ways of handling their situations. 

Don't judge. But don't just watch either. If you can change then change it. If you can't help the be quiet. 

Have I ever told you guys how fat I am?

No?

Well It's because I'd come to realize that I'm not. 

Yes maybe I'm a tad bit bigger than my siblings.

But it's not my fault they are SOOOO thin

My siblings are totally the opposite of me. My sister and my brother are worrying about their body being SOOO underweight while I'm here always thinking I'm too fat. 

I don't have eating disorder.

Well I skip dinners occasionally.

And I only eat rice like twice a week. ( I'm an asian btw )

I do sit ups before I go to bed. 

and yes I always worry about my weight like 24/7

This had only started like couple of years back. 

My mom keep teasing me about my weight. So does my uncles and my aunts. I used to take it lightly. Thinking they're only playing around. But after awhile it got to me. 

So I started going on diets. and even after losing some. I never thought it was good enough. 

At times I just give up and starts gorging down all the food I can find. 

And regret it the next day . And starve myself. 

( DON"T WORRY. I DON"T GO TO THE BATHROOM AND VOMIT ALL THE FOOD OUT)

All my friends are so thin. So yeah . it got me worried. 

But after knocking some senses out of me. I counted my BMI and realized that if I lose 1 kilogram I can actually be categorized as underweight. WHICH IS NOT HEALTHY

And if I gain 15 kilograms then only I'll be in the overweight category. 

SO seriously. What the hell am I worrying about?

I seriously was never one of those girls who give a damn. 

But when someone says something bad about you. no matter how much you want to ignore it. Sometimes you just can't help it. 

At the end of the day. Just remember that GOD is always there. 

Don't harm yourself just because someone called you fat. 

You are beautiful no matter what people say. 

But if you're fat and categorized as one of those unhealthy people. then yeah I suggest you to do something about. lose weight. because you're actually affecting your life. 

Till then <3

Every Year

HI!. I, Nurul Atiqah Nor Ahmadi celebrated her 17th birthday last sunday. Nothing interesting happened. Boring old life I have. -.- WELL Joe Brooks' birthday is this Friday. : ) . I don't know why I get excited for celebrities' birthdays. It's not like I'm celebrating it with them. I guess I'm thankful for their birth. : ) . Like Kyu's on the 3rd of Feb. Joe's on the 18th of May. and so on....

I have additional mathematics paper tomorrow. So far I'd screwed up all of my papers. so there's nothing to lose. If I get an A for additional mathematics I'll clean, vacuum, mop , wipe my room and the living room downstairs. AND I'll treat the first person that ask me for a free lunch. I guess I'll be saving my money cause no one reads this blog :P. 

I should probably go and study now if I want that A. 

Till then.